There
are seasons in life where we know that God is God and we are not…but if
we were God we’re sure that we’d be doing things differently because
how it is right now just sucks (can I say ‘sucks’ on the church blog!?).
Desert
Song has been my song during some hard seasons…being able to sing –
really sing - some of those lyrics have been hard, terrifying, emotional
and freeing all in one breath. “All of my life…in every season…you are
still God…I have a reason to sing…I have a reason to worship.”
When
we walk through a trial the lens through which we view life is
changed…we see things differently, analyze things in a new way…when
prayers and pleas with God have yet to be answered how we expected or
thought they should be, we need to decide who and what we’re going to
let God be to us in that moment.
Music
is a big part of my life…corporate and personal worship is such an
important part of my relationship with Christ…but I never want to sing
the words of the songs on Sunday morning or at small group or on my iPod
simply because I like the song or think that people are watching me
(I’m not that big a deal!) and will wonder what’s wrong if I’m not
singing…I want to sing meaningful words to my God. Sometimes I can’t
sing all the words and I just need to sing what I can…and sometimes I
just need to rest in the words and let them wash over me.
As
I’ve thought about my approach to worshipping God I was reminded of
something I read almost three years ago about a man grieving the loss of
his son and his journey back into being able to sing a song of praise
to God. I had to go back to find what he wrote so that I could share it
with you and the words struck me even deeper tonight:
I sang because:
I worship God for what he has already done.
I worship God, not out of a heart of understanding, but a heart of surrender.
And, for the first time I was able to praise a God who could have healed my son but did not.
I
don’t need to fully understand God to know that he deserves my highest
praise…but I need to trust him and live in surrender to him and the life
that he has for me.I’d love to hear what song God is using to really speak to you right now…leave a comment…who knows who it might encourage today!
Amy